Although thankful for our feelings, we must be cautious, because feelings often lie. My feelings have definitely lied to me, and I am sure the same is true for you. Right now, maybe you are in the throes of making a feelings-focused decision. People everywhere constantly find themselves in a position of compromise in the business world, maritally, and financially because they either feel or do not feel a certain way—Wo-o-o, feelings…! Problems arise when feelings are unanchored by God’s truth. Untethered to truth, our emotions fall prey to the devil’s sway. In reference to Satan, the father of lies, Jesus said, “The thief comes only to steal, kill, and destroy” (John 10:10). The enemy steals our emotions, then goes for the kill and destroys our decisions. For example, I recently spoke with a couple whose marriage is hanging by a thread. They both claimed to be Christ followers as they began describing a difficult issue in their relationship. I decided to start from square one. I asked, “When did you guys seek forgiveness over this issue?” They said nothing and just looked at me like a couple of deer in the headlights. I continued, “Specifically, when did you seek forgiveness?” The husband said, “I haven’t”. Flabbergasted, I said, “Now wait a minute. This major issue is tearing your marriage apart, you are Christ followers greatly forgiven by God—something we don’t deserve—and you’re telling me you have not sought forgiveness with one another?” They said, “Right”. I said, “Can I ask why?” The husband looked at me said, “I‘m waiting to feel it”. “Feel it?!” I said, “You’re never going to feel like it! The evil one will never let you feel it!” Whoa! Feelings can mess a marriage up. I have been married for thirty-four years, and I have never felt feelings of forgiveness. When I tell Lisa, “I blew it. I am sorry. Will you forgive me?”—I do not feel like doing it. Nonetheless, I have done it hundreds of times.
Moses had the opportunity right there after he killed the Egyptian to come clean, to tell the truth about himself. He didn’t do it, though. He did something else. He hid the Egyptian. That’s right. He hid the Egyptian. We have a tendency, don’t we, when we sin, I know I do, to kind of cover it up, to kind of take out a shovel and put some sand over it so no one will see it, no one will know it happens.
And fear and sin go hand in hand like chips and hot sauce, peanut butter and jelly, mashed potatoes and cream gravy. When i sin, if I don’t deal with it, fear will come in. Remember me with the boa constrictor, “okay, I’ve disobeyed my parents and I was happy i had the snake but i began to be fearful, “oh no. What if mom and dad find out?” And that’s what happened to Moses.
He wants me to be a part of it, if we just ask him to strength to summon the power to be a part of it. Moses didn’t know. He kind of elbowed god out of the way. The creature shook his puny little fist in the face of the creator and he said, “i will live by my own self-sovereignty. I’m the man. I’m above the law. I elbow you out of the way, God. To the left, to the right. No problem. Oh!” The egyptian is dead. Moses thinks, “no problem. No problem.”
Remember that i told you? If you fail to look to God before you act, something terrible is going to happen and it did. And then when something terrible happens, we have a tendency to hide something. Here’s the third principle on becoming a difference maker. Difference makers locate their sin and they tell the truth about it.
We’d been dating for over two years. But we made the move to Houston, over a 1,000 miles away. Now, I thought, “Okay, I can finish up my high school career and wherever I get a scholarship, Lisa and I will just go to that same school. Then we’ll get married.” That was the plan. Now I want to talk to you again about this contrast thing. Talk about contrast! I grew up in a very, very middle class environment. We wore blue jeans and tee shirts to school. That was it. We moved from the Deep South to an area of Houston that was like Highland Park on steroids.
Dad moved from a church in South Carolina that had thousands to a church that was running around 700 people. I was thinking, “This is really odd.” It was a culture shock for me. Now I was going to high school with all these wealthy people. And to show you how ignorant I was, I remember asking someone, “What are those horses on people’s clothes?” They looked at me and said, “That’s Polo man! Where have you been?” I remember seeing several cars that had these big hood ornaments, the round hood ornaments with things that looked like an upside down Y.
“What is that?” “It’s a Mercedes. It’s a Benz!” I didn’t even know what they were. That year in Houston was a very, very tough year for me because I had a coach that not only betrayed me, but betrayed my family. After ten or fifteen games I caught a severe case of mononucleosis. But pre-season, I was picked by Dave Campbell as one of the top twelve recruits in the state of Texas.
He would not think about acting, he would not think about twirling a live dog on his nose or shooting basketball without first taking the cue from the trainer and i punched lisa and said, “hey, look at the seal. He’s smarter than most people i know. He is locked in on the trainer,” and that is what difference makers do. That’s what moses failed to do. Difference makers, they’re locked into god before they act.
They, like balboa, look up at the trainer, “God, what do you want me to do? What do you want me to do, God?” You see, god is doing great things in the world. He’s doing great things right near you, right near me. The question should be this, “god, where are you working and help me to be a part of it.” God’s working and he wants you to be a part of it.